Let's just suppose today's 30th Sept.
7 Months & counting.

I don't know, maybe it's me, but everytime my parents try to 'encourage' me to study, it only makes me feel less determined to kill that potato couch in me & strain myself to work.
How ironic.

Random:
Bro: "Eh Xuan, what does Bruce Lee like to drink?"
Me: "What?"
Bro: "Water."
Me: "Why?"
Bro: "Because Bruce Lee whole day say WORTAHHH!"
( Water -.- )

Wth.

Wherever you will go

I bloody want my As,
I bloody want my parents to be proud of me,
I'm bloody afraid I would fail my EOYs,
I'm bloody angry with myself for complacent even though I'm panicking like ants in hot soup right now,
I bloody want someone to coach me in my weaker subjects,
I'm bloody on the brink of tears,

I bloody don't want anyone to ask me about this post.

First Love

The last

I'll grit my teeth, hope for the best.
Although depression accumulates within my chest, I'll persevere.
Future's uncertain, it never will be what I wanna expect.

Miracles never happen, and that's what makes me lose my composure.
If only, there's someone there to root for me regardless of rain or shine.
Please, let this be the last.

I just wanna joyful again, is that too much to ask for?
Disappointing my parents, making them stare right into my guilt-ridden eyes once again.

Sooner or later anyway.

Let's end this

Feeling guilt-stricken over some prefect stuff, fills me up with trepidation that I might just be kicked out or something.
Feeling f*cked up at the same time, I'm not giving a damn about my studies at all, and my responsibilities are piling up, up & up.

And I'm not doing anything about it.

If there's a way to cut myself loose from these strings binding me so painfully, I'ld rather let myself loose & die.
It doesn't seem that I'm feeling that way from my mood at school,

But sadly, yes it is.

Ming Ming Hen Ai Ni

Just a silent whisper

Before I forget..
Keshini's nautical star! Nice, no???

Depak looks so cute like that man, he should learn to be less irritable and be more entertaining. Kinda looks like a retarded bunny, heeheee.

So..went to study with Renee & Siti today at PotongPasir Mac, BoonKeng's was crowded.
I taught them.. what? Science?

& I finally know how to draw Trigo graphs, so noob me.
Then home lo, and Renee came my house to play, (:
I shall go to her house tomorrow if I manage to find time..
I can make my IC on Monday!

I don't have a passport photo yet though.
UGH.

"Now it's clearer, & more depressing."

I just wanna scream and say a million sorries to you.
You wouldn't know why anyway...

On the verge of an emotional breakdown.
At such a perfect timing.

So it was dinner at ( what hotel? ) opposite Far East Plaza to celebrate my birthday.
Pretty early for a celebration but.. aiya exams you know.

So yeah, some pictures.
The food was.... fab.
Stuffed my stomach 3/4 full of dessert, haha.





I'm taller than her leh, ( evil laugh )


Stupid bro, lol.

I love...

Renee & Json manzxzxzxz~
They completed my Twilight series, plus PS. I Love You!
Super early birthday gifts, haha!

We went to Vivo & Dhoby Ghaut & Toa Payoh after school searching for stuffs to buy for me.
So priviledged, hor? :D
They whisper here whisper there, then suddenly disappear loooooools.

Lunch they also treat me, like I'm their LaoDa -.-

And they place the "stuff" into my bag in the bus.
It weighed a ton. Or more?
Consisted of...

Eclipse, Breaking Dawn & PS I Love You.

I am sooooo gonna hug the books to sleep.
Right.

I want a nautical star tattoo on my wrist/ankle someday.
Maybe by the time I'm allowed, I'ld have already forgotten. :/
Keshini draws some reallyyy nice nautical stars!

(Pretend there's a really nice nautical star drawing here, my USB's bonkers )

NICE, NO? -.-

Okay, off to slack/study/sleep?/stare into midair/sneeze/snore/surf the net/whatever.

"I wanna know the name."

Happy 20(something) Wedding Anniversary Pa & Mum

♥

You've been together for so long already, come on stop arguing over trivial matters.
Haha!

Sorry for being such a lazy daughter, not even mugging for EOY.
._.

&

Happy Birthday to Michelle O:

Stop being so scary!
Ahhaaa was kidding, you're old already. (:

I think I'll end here.

Things are better not to be said.
No?
This is so abrupt.

Feeling better, nope.

I'm off to New Moon!
Hopefully make it to Breaking Dawn before the movie.

Heehee..

"Unless there's a perfect reason to do so."

So it's...

Oh dear, I look like a freshman with newly cut hair.
I look like a Secondary one what, no? Haha (:

Super jealous of Celine's brand new Twilight manzxzxz, I went to buy just for her leh!
Maybe everyone's praying that I borrow their books and hope to the max that I spoil them, so that they can get a brand new one all over again.

Feeling very gw the whole day until school ended.
Went to PP to buy the Twilight book. Blooody, all the hairdressers there are super posh.
Except for QB. Ehem.
One was...Supercuts? Or something?

(Walks into store to ask for the price)
(Two men looked at me subsequently, scary -.-)
I: "Erm.. how much for a student haircut? "
(One stare stare at the other)
The Other says: "Oh, it's $35. You okay with that? "
I: (Your scissors made of gold ah?)
The Other says: "The normal price is $40 odd, yours is considered cheap already.."
I: (Asks Reneh fakely) "Eh want anot? "
Reneh: "Bu dong bu dong..."
I: (Tells Other Guy) " Er nevermind thanks."
(Turns around and gives jiaobin face to Reneh)

I should really become a professional hairdresser or something next time.

You don't know it yet..maybe never

So it was off to Clarke Quay & Fareast the other day for Nessa's dress.
& we bought the whole lot of these.

Omg right O:
We walked right home like mannequins loaded with stuff hoho!
Nice though heee.


My papa & bro went a bit ( ehem ) & went to wear the Wayfarer.
Future models , *applause
My brother will rape me I think if he sees this.


Dinner at night, went home for KingKong & on the phone, lol.

Term 4 started off today, reminds me of the revisions I'm going to have to go through these few weeks.
I hope I finally get the adrenaline rush to study for the EOYs.

Arghhhhh, I accidentally dropped Celine's book and it kind of...spoilt. :/
So I'll have to get her a replacement tomorrow, even if she doesn't want it, Hah.

Tomorrow's Bio test- 80% chance not going to do well.

"I never tried looking because it hurts"

Temporary skin, I don't know how to edit Blogger's chim templates?
Sighsighsigh.

Songs below, wait for it to load.
My tagboard's gone temporarily too..so make do by posting comments.
Pretty pleaseee? (:

Since March.

Chris Daughtry - What About Now

Chris Daughtry - What About Now

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Heehee

Made up my mind.
Nobody's gonna know what I was thinking, so....

"I miss Nessa :/,

I miss Beijing,

I miss my studying mood,

I want my high days back,

I want everything I ever was,

I want that little wish."

ANYWAY, replies to tags!
Haven't been in the replying mood. Hmm.

EDIT//

I MUST FIND A WAY TO WATCH DEATH RACE.

Reply to Tags;

zhuzhu.!; Later he come find me and kill me how. Then you don't have me le. Sad? :D

CHUANWAH; No problem! (:

Kellyann♥; Wahlao, you don't understand me. I was just kidding, make you happy only. LOL xD

MUNTING!; Err.. no link?

pnggg; Sent you already!

JOANNA; Eh yoooo! :D

Twlight's an inspiration.